God Knew Her Deepest Fear
Tamara nearly dropped the glass in her hand when sudden sharp knives of pain attacked her chest. This isn't suppose to happen to young women, her mind cried.
Later that afternoon, her cardiologist's nurse called. "Your latest test shows that your heart is not responding to medication," she said. "We've scheduled surgery."
Tamara clicked the phone off and fell to her knees. "Lord, I'm the only mother my children have. Please guard my health."
Her grandmother died at a young age leaving five children. Tamara often prayed, "Please don't make me leave my children like my grandmother had to leave hers."
As she pulled each child into her arms before the surgery, an inner voice asked, "Do you really think you love them more than I do? I created them!"
She knew what she had to do. "I put my children in Your hands, Lord. I choose to trust You. Please, please come closer and give me peace."
Suddenly the song "It Is Well With My Soul" popped into her mind and she drifted into a deep sleep.
Toward the end of surgery she sensed the words, "You are healed" while "It Is Well" played in the background of her mind. She could almost feel God's arms around her. She knew that He loved her in spite of her fragile faith. Thank You for waking me up to experience this moment, she prayed, then fell back to sleep.
Hours later the surgeon visited her in the recovery room. "Well, you're cured. The surgery went better than expected."
Her own understanding based on what she had seen in her family made it difficult for her to trust God. When she made a conscious choice to trust Him completely, she experienced both His presence and the certainty of His healing.
Thank You, Lord, for Your unfailing promises.
Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding" (Proverbs 3:5).
Memory Verse for March "May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit" (Romans 15:13).
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