Was I Trusting or Worrying?
After we began Women Alive! magazine, I would go to the post office each day, eager to see what was in our mail box. I began to notice that on the days many subscriptions arrived it was easier to rejoice than on the days when there were few. This bothered me. If I were really trusting the Lord, if this were His work and not mine, should it matter what came in the mail?
Late one night I was holding this matter before the Lord and asking that He search my desires. Would He help me to trust Him so my feelings didn't fluctuate with the mail? I wanted this to be His battle.
"Can you see that post office box as My hand?" He said. From that night, I could. In the months that followed, I could as easily give thanks for a few subscriptions as for many by accepting the mail as from Him. How freeing it was to not worry but to calmly leave the results of our advertising with Him. I learned to rest in the knowledge that He would provide. To remain at rest, however, I had to work diligently on the magazine. My rest depended upon an active faith.
Quietly resting is not synonymous with complacency. It is not casually hoping all will go well. It is vigorously doing all He tells us to do while resting in the knowledge that God causes all things to work together for good to those who love and trust Him.
Thank You, Father, that You fulfill your promise that those who hope in You will not be disappointed.
God "is able to [carry out His purpose and] do superabundantly, far over and above all that we [dare] ask or think [infinitely beyond our highest prayers, desires, thoughts, hopes, or dreams]" (Eph. 3:20 Amp.)